yiyori

Hontouni zannen,Zannen desu i dont know either how it happens just a simple glance and i fell so badly that i cant even woke up.Seducing eyes,egao,egao kangeki shiteru, hontou ni ureshii,how am i supposed to live now?i'm only a human i cant breathe without air? if i keep on waiting i think it'll be not as surprising as that but in heaven "will you come"? if mou jikan yo??

Doushite- how come

Hontouni zannen-too bad

Zannen Desu- im sorry

egao- smile

kangeki shiteru- i'm thrilled

hontou ni ureshii- i'm overjoyed

will you come?- katekurenai

mou jikan yo?-time is up

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Even though the rain has stopped,on this weekend afternoon,im walking the isle alone,"Soba ni,itai no ni". I should have known this, if i fell on the sky that much,i would hurt just as much. Though i know it's breath taking,it keeps on breathing for you even when"aenai toki mo". I know i should'nt think about  wishing our wolds were not apart,the voice of my soul which ive tried to hide seems to overflow "Sou de kurushii no". I have known i cant keep my world on you all to myself. But now it's a precious thought. I Believe in the truth only i see,and keep on waiting. "Fushigi" things do exist.

 _yiyori_

+ shinjitsu +

Soba ni,itai no ni- even though i want to be with you ''

aenai toki  mo-i cant see you

Sou de kurushii no -so much so that it hurts

Fushigi- mysterious

how was it feel like you are nothing? nothingness that kills you? feeling that no one needs you? bedridden and depends on other people's hand, it was so painfull knowing that you have to be a burden to other's, your disturbing them and the fact that other people cant understand you.The looks that kills striking on to your heart, you feel that a gray shadows haunt and torment and torture you till that last drop of blood counts... ~_~ i cant imagine how she feels and day by day i am starting to realize these simple words she say,,this simple words came from a simple 15 year old girl, she is diagnosed for her uncurable diseases, it was so pityful that she cant walk,write,speak fluently,and even eat. I experience a combination of intense sorrow and mercy for the girl. "what is my purpose of living?,i feel like i was alive and burrying  a casket  it was so painful, the pain of living dead she said". Her silent voice breaks my heart knowing that we have the same age.

Crying all day,asking why, is what builds her world,i want to save her and show her that someone cares, and also telling her that there is God always watching and guiding us.I need to be strong helping and encouraging her to be strong because everything happens for a reason and i need to hide my sympathy towards her to ease her suffering.

`life is so cruel,happy, but lonely,limits our counted. ~_~

_yiyori_